Pornography

Did that get any one's attention? In my previous life -- before most of you who know me knew me -- my ex-husband had an addiction to pornography -- and voyeurism -- and snuff films -- and couldn't decide which team he wanted to bat for. Today, after "A" took time out of his schedule to help me record a few classical pieces for the potential buyer for my piano, he was forced to go to the "movies" section of his I-Mac... what I saw there sent me into PTSD all over again... I have not been able to stop crying. I don't know why it bothers me -- after all, I AM divorcing him... but once again, I feel as if porn has replaced me... and it doesn't feel good. I can't even begin to articulate the reason for my tears... they just won't stop.